Recently we talked about waiting through those things that are so incredibly hard to wait for. But there’s another kind of waiting we do that’s just as difficult, and it’s the kind of waiting we get into all by ourselves. By waiting, I mean pursuing and by pursuing I mean the living life in the pursuit of our desires.
There are all sorts of things I desire. Aspects of my life I want to see succeed. Aspects of my life I can’t wait to leave behind. Things that excite and motivate me, and things I dread every single day. And most days, whether I realize it or not, a lot of this stuff drives me. It’s what pushes me to get through the day and to make certain decisions – whether I’m pursuing the end of a long work day, that sweet moment in time when I get to crash on the couch, eat my dinner, and watch a favorite TV show before it all starts again, success in a given area, or something less tangible like financial freedom.
I have all sorts of pursuits.
But none of those things is Christ.
When I was being healed, Jesus chose to walk me through years of internal and external change. I spent most of those years desperately pursuing health. But for a brief period of that journey, I was just pursuing Christ. In that window of time, I had a new outlook: Healing will be great. I’m looking forward to that day. And God will get me there when He gets me there.
It didn’t last long before I was back to my old ways, but I’m convinced that sweet spot – where we can enjoy and anticipate without the anxious pursuit – is where we’re meant to live.
And now as I subconsciously pursue all kinds of different things, none of them contrary to Christ but none of them Christ Himself, I hear Him extend the invitation again, “Come to me, all who are weary, and I will give you rest. Lay down those burdens, those things you’re holding onto so tightly, and trust me to give you good gifts when the time is right.”
There’s nothing wrong with anticipation, excitement, or dreaming of good things. Those things are certainly gifts from our God who made us in His image. But until we can say, the Lord gives, the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord, we’re living far from the peace Jesus died for us to have. Everything else feels like striving. Everything else feels like the hamster wheel that won’t slow down long enough for us to catch a good breath before it takes off again. Even when we think we’re doing that striving and pursuing for Him.
If you’re with me in the waiting game, what do you say we call it quits? It’s time we stopped rejecting Jesus’ real offer for rest and start living as if it truly is done. That sweet spot isn’t easy to find, but the closer we draw to God, the more we find His peace. And it’s in Him alone that we are satisfied.
Because I am righteous, I will see you. When I awake, I will see you face to face and be satisfied. – Psalm 17:15 (NLT)
Original photo of Young Woman Enjoying Her Morning Coffee by stockimages from freedigitalphotos.net. Text added by Stephanie Oh.